PainfulDiary

Dear Diary, Today has been one of those days when i have never felt so alone. Today at school my friends left me and i found myself wondering around school looking lost. I had nowhere to go noone to talk to. I can just see the glances i got of people knowing at that moment there was something seriously wrong with me. Im not the same anymore, my sense of humour has dried up and im to tierd to talk to people and when i do i cant even look at them nemore. After wondering around for ages in the rain with my damp clothes shivering i decided to just sit in the libary. I pretended to read a book when in my mind all betral of the people i love kept throbing in my mind. I felt frozen and i felt like crying there and then. There were moments of tears entering my eyes but i resisted. I knew a boy in my year was about to approach me, and all i wanted was for him not to. But he did out of kindness and asked why i was sitting alone and if i wanted to find my friends. I lied and just said i wanted to do my homework and wasnt sure where they were. I just feel ashamed of who i am these days. Im so broken. i will always remember that boy Josh. though.

I dont even have the small hand of friends. .. . . Im so scared that i never get put back together. . . I dont have anyone to talk to anymore. . . I wish i could have a hot chocolate and a hug from my mummy to be honest =( .